Romantic Words (Part III)

101 . Today, is the peak of my muddle.. I cant writing anything, #my drunker

102 . I save my sparkle to face you, dear

103 . Maybe, you're not someone who makes me smile again. You're not a man who always sent me the happiness. But, only you, who let me know, how meaningfull is my sparkle to face miscellaneous feels that you gave to me

104 . Because i trust. I have no fear about your blind side.

105 . Dear, please let me know that you love me too

106 . Because im freak. I knew not only me who really hard to understand you

107 . I start to think there's no your way and my way. There is only an understanding

108 . We need to say thanks to Allah SWT, dear

109 . If you were a subject. You would be the hardest one.

110 . Why i always save my patience for you, dear

111 . I am sorry, i just can write everything

112. Bagaikan Secangkir Rokok dan Sepuntung Kopi

113. How is the feeling of being loved?

114. How come this feel is being so deep, whereas his appearance is become so far and far from this sight

115. Aku terlalu berkarakter untuk membuatmu menjadi bingung

116. i already doubt you

117. i just lie if i said i didn't think about you when we're appart

118. There is no fear, there is no doubt. Because i trust

119. How come my mind is only think about you, whereas im surrounded by more than thousand people

120. There is no more your way and my way. Because i begin to go on your way

121. love can be so cruel. we have to prepare to be disappointed

122. you are right, dear. Even we seem like playing puzzle without knowing the whole picture. We both just think and imagine it. You dont know what i have thought, and me too. So, how can we reach the same perception without talk each other

123. I have no problem regard to what you did. But, would you mind to read me for a moment please? Then, realize that im not your pocker games

124. How i try to loathe you, i can not stop to write about you

125. You are like my favourite samurai. I Love, because of the sharpness

126. You never say even for a single word before. But, what you did signs that you were asking me to go.

127. I will only send my pray, if you wont to be with me

128. How come this feel becomes so far and far. Whereas i have tried harder to grip it

129. It seems like you're asking me to cut these memories, because you just go for a while. Then those memories will be passed

130. My heart was trembling when i passed you by

Romantic Words (Part II)

51. Creating a romantic quote is my way to end up this insomnia

52. Im bank on fluke

53. Whether false or true, my past with you is better than today

54. Hey my drunker, your chewing gum is still on me, take it please

55. Please let us meet by accidentally

56. Have you ever felt afraid loss someone. But you cant do anything to save it

57. Day by day my romantic words is more and more

58. You make me create all things become part of words. Not because i love to write. Its because my mouth cant say even just for a single word

59. Stone vs stone

60. Try to be patient in facing you like wishing indonesian team will take a part into worldcup

61. I miss you my drunker.. You know what.. I've already lost some of my quoteloves for you. So sick of it.

62. Hey, wherever you are, my shadow always on your side, not on your back anymore

63. My heart says, you will give me everything when you love me someday

64. Dear, everyone has their own way to show their love, including me. If you dont get it now, of course it will happend someday

65. I learned to love coffee till i really love it

66. You like a cloud, can be seen, but your appearence is just a fabrication

67. im getting unoccupied when you re getting an autis boy

68. You said you will lose your grip whereas you never grip me

69. I want to kill you, when you were cheat on me by herside

70. Hei.. How to take you off from my head

71. And you never come to take your chewing gum

72. Thank you because you were laying there with her. So that i can leave you surely

73. I dont need a mask to make you love me

74. They were told me that i should be leaving you whereas im already preparing some steps to get you back

75. If you want to know me deeply, just take deep knows about black coffee and papper

76. Why you always disappear of my sight

77. Is wishing God make you meet me accidentally

78. When you tryng harder to let me go. I have created a time to get you back

79. Every time here.. I feel sleepy

80. How can we stay in the same way without talk each other

81. Even your heart is not your own

82. I try to find another things when you are getting busy. #because we'r appart

83. I miss you and going insane, but God will take over

84. Okey im weak. But at least i ve showed in my way

85. I always keep in work my active notes till morning. Cause my story of you will summarize till i sleep

86. I used to stay because i can feel you in that way

87. i thought we will never meet in the same way. We only in a huff at the crossroads while take an occasional muse.

88. even i need a lot of figures to explain what your character is. You are too hard to be understood. Not because you are mysterius. Its because you gave some fence on your appearence in showing anything else. So that its going blur

89. I love to be silent. I wanna be your listener

90. You like a drizzle. Feel so cold, but sentimental inside

91. How can i stop my tremblings heart, even i feel afraid only to read your reply message

92. I keep from antoher, just you and me

93. Bagaikan gerimis menemui tanah

94. This is my sincerity to understand you deeply. Not to melt a stone, but to know it deeper than i have known. To stay beside it.

95. No body else need to know us. Just for you, me, and a few of friends

96.i already realized, how much i feel guilty to My God, when i always remember you

97. You forced me to do anything else you want. I did. While i knew that i had out of my box.

98. im affraid you will lost of my love in the end

99. Wishing you will be mature in facing me. We need an appropiate. We need a ballancy. We. Not only you.

100 . Now, while iam laying here, i have resigned to the possibility that i will have lost you

Romantic Words (Part I)

1. I just lie if i said no problem between us


2. You said we dont need to do what they do then just running what happen


3. They whom always come and go just leave a memory, but their love lives in real


4. im going insane when i realize that i do love you


5. i'll pick you up. I dont even know where you will come


6. I feel talk w/freezer when i have chat w/you


7. i am in freezing point.. Just staring at the sky then i would be broken by the clouds and come into pieces like a drizzle


8. I have been loved you since you were came as an autis boy


9. you are not only an intermezo in my life, you are the last episode


10. i dont need you'r being in front of me, i just need your shadow which smiling at me


11. you are like the first carriage on a train and the last is me. We will never meet. But, i'll copy your shadow when we appart


12. Together with you is like in rollercoaster. There's an enjoy, but there's more a rapid beat of my heart


13. you are like a coffee which have a dark side and a sweet side. But, you let someone's hand to decide your taste first, then you will follow it


14. creating a romantic word for you is my way to end up this insomnia


15. hey drunker, wish you didnt drink last nite, get well soon


16. they said that i have to be soft, and i'll do it for you


17. i still enjoy in loving you, however you try to make me loathe you


18. if you want to stay away from me, please tell me your reason while you stare at me. Then i will know clearly that you have lied


19. dont you understand, my heart even loves you when my self told me that i loathe you


20. you told me, that i have to show my love, you always be demanding. But you never care for what i did


21. i dont need a relationship status, i only need a fairness. You ask me to show it, but i guess you always make it worthless


22. they told me that i should leave you whereas im already preparing some steps to get you back


23. we are so great. We run this life as usual as there's nothing happen between us. We are so damn liar. We are so fake


24. you are not too astonishing as i know. You just an excellent cheat. You are so fake.


25. Im getting unoccupied, but you just sitting there with her


26. there are no memories that i can burn. Because all memories about you are hardcopy form


27. i am not brave to recognize that you didn't love me


28. I think too positive whereas you just gave me a smooth rejection


29. i m glad if you said that you didn't love me instead of full of white lies from you


30. whereas i wont be demanding. I dont need a commitment. I only need your willingness to be full of clearness. Try to be honest. Just saying the truth. You dont need to pretend anything. I prefer to hear the worst of truth instead of your sweetest thing then gave the fully pain in the end


31. This is the day. I decide to leave you. This is the day which i start to be without you. I dont care anymore, what you do, what you did, and what will you do. I dont care what you want.


32. I didn't through this day succesfully, i still remaind your face


33. when will i stop to create this romantic words otherwise all is meaningless for you, my drunker


34. i wanna be free. I wanna be myself. I wanna write everything in my status


35. This is me, i wanna be my self, i have my own way


36. I m afraid to get you back


37. Seems like have lost one of my finger


38. We both are too hard to be soft


39. My silent is my way in loving you


40. You are not an autis, you re absolutely an idiot


41. Black coffee is not always bitter as badboy which is not always unkind


42. One think that i cant accept: its hard for me to continue my show if there is someone in your heart. Im getting unoccupied

43. You let me know there is no fence of patient

44. Im going insane when i realized that i love you

45. I prefer the truth instead of full of white lies from you

46. I use my brain to think then use my heart to run

47. When I just lay here and imagine what happen out there,, there'r so many romantic words that i create to you

48. What if you know that took your picture is my habit

49. I can feel your deepest heart when you gave me part of the words

50. A miscellaneous part of words

Gerimis dan Si Tanah

Bagaikan gerimis menemui tanah...
Seperti beringin menunggui ombak..
Tiada ramping bagi segala mungkin..
Hanya kelemasan tertinggal bak mengejar elang

terang pun mirip gerhana sejengkal abad
telaga manis mewarnai secuil eklips
minor dan mayor beradu semiton
mendamba hajar bertatap ibrahim


meski, bagaikan api berasa embun

tersisa nuranimu yang bisa kupeluk..

This is world, this is life

This is world, this is life.

Everyone has their load. There's a big load and small stuff.
But, one thing for sure is everyone will takes some barriers as same as their strength.

No one feels more difficult things than other.
No one.

Is because, God always gaves us based on our record in the past.

Based on our resistance.

Sailormoon

Perempuan,

bukan masalah apakah dia cantik atau pintar
bukan masalah apakah dia dikenal atau eksis
bukan masalah apakah dia aktivis atau seniman
bukan masalah apakah dia jago masak atau nggak

Perempuan,
dia satu paket..
Ketika dia lagi full make up+hi heels tapi lari2 ngejar bis
ketika dia lagi nangis2 gara2 suka sama cowo' tapi cowonya biasa aja alias bertepuk sebelah tangan
ketika dia lagi ngejar mimpi2 terus berhasil dan terkenal cerdas
ketika dia lagi ngulek sambel terasi tapi beruraian air mata
ketika dia lagi bingung mau pake baju apa buat first datenya dia
ketika dia ngerokok pas lagi frustasi
ketika dia takut kecoa tapi bisa mendadak di posisi terdepan kalo ngebela kaumnya
ketika dia teriak2 kesakitan pas mau ngelahirin tapi abis itu mendadak berhenti pas bayinya udah keluar
ketika dia bisa ikut gokil gila2an bareng sahabat2 cowo'
ketika dia bisa segitu adorenya kalo liat artis korea ganteng
ketika dia segitu nggak bisa tidurnya pas lagi jatuh cinta
ketika dia segitu hebohnya pas tau sahabat cewenya di sakitin pacarnya
ketika dia jadi contoh buat adik2nya bahkan teman2nya
ketika dia mulai jadi tulang punggung keluarga dan di bangga2in
ketika dia segitu suka nya sama motorcross tapi pas denger lagu melankolis tetep melting
ketika dia bahkan takut memutuskan menikah

Perempuan,ada sejuta rahasia di dalam cover mereka
ada sejuta kepribadian dibalik apa yang sementara ini terlihat

tapi yang pasti, ia adalah perhiasan dunia yang indah anggun tangguh, meski kadang sedikit ringkih, tapi ia bahkan kadang lebih kuat dari laki-laki,

cintanya, kesetiannya, pengabdiannya..

KOPI

Hidup kaya' kopi..
Penuh realita..
Nggak cuma manis, tapi juga ada bagian yang pahit.

Tapi, itu semua tergantung pembuatnya..

Apa yang mereka ingin lebih banyak ada di kopinya..

: manis atau pahit??

Keretaku hatiku

Melalui satu demi satu stasiun, banyak demi banyak kereta, dan sejuta juta konco penumpang *begitu aku kerap menyebutnya,mempunyai milyaran cerita yang tergambar di bingkainya..selalu saja membuat hatiku bergetar, bukan karna terharu, bukan karna tersentuh, atau melankolis ill yang sedang kambuh, tapi justru karna.. Hatiku seperti mampu membaca sederet al kisah yang dimainkan oleh mereka2 yang terlihat dari balik kaca jendela ini, bahkan segala jenis properti yang ada di dalamnya pun punya ukiran ukiran yang khas tentang bagaimana sebenarnya maunya hidup ini..Ohh, bagaimana mungkin derai2 pantomim ini mampu menyampaikan begitu banyak episod di setiap chapternya..Ada yang kaya, ada yang cukup2 saja, dan banyak yang miskin. Aku barusan teringat, perjlanan malang jakarta dengan matarmaja, kala itu di bangku kereta yang sangat keras dan sempit, ada sebuah keluarga kecil yang terdiri dari ayah ibu, dan dua anaknya yang terusssss menangis, mungkin karna matarmaja yang memang crowded.. Sesaat itupun hatiku langsung berkata: huh, sby harus liat ini semua, masih terlalu banyak orang miskin di negri ini, tapi juga terlalu banyak orang yang apply BBM di handphonenya, walaupun harga blackberry sekarang nggk semahal dulu, tapi pliis dehh... Terlalu banyakanak muda yang tumbuh menjadi keras karna mereka di didik demikian oleh swot di sekitarnya. Hufth.Ada lagi yang aku ingat, kira2 sepuluh tahun yang lalu, jakarta surbaya, aku menaiki kereta terbagus pada masa itu, anggrek, tapiii massa bonek sedang beraksi..jadilah perjalananku penuh dengan teriakan histeris konco penumpang dimana2,. Restorasi terbaik kala itu hancur lebur ditimpukki batu2 kelas berat oleh orang2 yang juga ngefans berat sama persebay dan akhirnya emosi berat gara2 kekalahannya. Woww.. Ngeri parah!!Ada lagi yang juga menarik di ingatanku, kali ini malang jakarta, juga dengan matarmaja, jadwal solat isya magrib jama takdimku biasanya jatuh di semarang, tapi kala itu, berhentinya matarmaja di stasiun semarang terlalu cepat sehingga terlalu beresiko untuk memutuskan solat disana..kami, aku dan sahabatku, menunggu di pemberhentian stasiun berikutnya, kira 2 pukul setengah satu malam wib .. Matar berhenti..di sebuah stasiun keciiiil sekali dan asli nggk ngerti dimana. Yaweslah turun aja drpd nggk solat tambah ribet di akhirat. Awalnya kami bersama segerombolan orang yang juga turun untuk cari mesjid di sekitar stasiun kecil itu, tapi jauuuuuuh sekali kami berjalan, akhirnya tinggal 3 orang yang bertahan... Saat itu, benar2 pasrah kalo harus ketinggalan kereta gara2 nyari mesjid.. Tapi dari situ aku memahami bagaimana makna ketakwaan.Kalau yang kali ini, aku sedang duduk di sancaka, jogja surabaya, bersama ibu dan bapakku yang asik nostalgia di kursi belakang * dulu beliau sekolah di jogja, jadi sering ambil rute jogja sby dengan ekonomi class pada jaman itu..Huu,,, terlalu indah pemandangannya untukku tinggal meneruskan tulisan ini, akhir kata..Sering2lah melihat ke bawah.. Karna itu adalah ladang syukur, namun jangan jua menutup diri dari hal2 yang dia atas, karna itu mampu memberi pengetahuan yang juga baik bagi kita. Sekian :)

7 Tahun Mundur 7 Tahun Maju Nanti

Subuh tadi sekitar seperempat dari waktu ke 5,

aku menemukanmu,
aku sepertinya hilang dari benakmu,
selama kamu sedang bahagia sekarang.

Nanti lagi,
mungkin bisa bahagia bersama.

Aku tau ini mirip symphoni murahan bicara patah hati.

Tapi kali ini, mohon biarkan sastraku jadi apa adanya.

"kamu 3 kali meninggalkanku dengan yang berbeda, berarti 3 kali pula ku lakukan program munafik besar-besaran dalam hatiku. Sesekali pernah, aku hampir bilang yang sebenarnya. Namun, seketika segera cepat ku ralat lusa nya.

Sekarang, kamu sedang menikmati dengannya.

Sementara?
Atau
Selamanya?

Tolong cerita padaku jika kamu sudah selesai bermain-main. Karena aku masih bersedia,
jika nanti lagi
kamu sudah

tidak sedang di atas angin,
tidak sedang mencari bahagia semu,
tidak sedang bersama mereka-mereka,
bahkan
sedang tidak punya apa-apa sekalipun.

Karena aku, hatiku
selalu sama,
aku tidak pernah berubah sepertimu.

Perubahan-perubahanmu sudah seperti gempa bumi untukku. Jadi, aku tidak ingin membuatmu merasakannya juga.

Terakhir lagi,
hatiku tetap sama . . .
Dari 7 tahun yang mundur, ke 7 tahun yang maju nanti, . .

Kulkas

Baru kali menerawang lingkup Kehidupan yang seperti kulkas.
Ada garis tangan tinggal bagaimana berjalan mengikutinya.
Ada ruang si kulkas tinggal bagaimana berulang mengisinya.
Seperti riang rapuh juga pada anggur dan petai.
Cerminan manis pahit juga pada es krim dan es batu.
Kulkas terpenuhi susu, apel, bayam, bahkan cabai dan coca cola. Ada jua kulkas sekedar liputi air.

Kulkas jadi kaya buah dan sayur atau putih air saja.
Ia terserah pada sang pemilik.
Hidup ingin pelangi atau kelabu.
Mereka pula bergantung pada sang "pewarna

Bahkan Aku Bersedia

Bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan waktuku untuk menunggunya

bahkan aku bersedia
menjadikan mataku sering menatapnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan telingaku mendalami ceritanya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan jemariku menulis tentangnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan otakku berisi bayangnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan kakiku menapak perih disampingnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan mulutku terdiam mendengarkanya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan hidungku mengerti aromanya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan tanganku takperlu di genggamnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan langkahku selalu ditingglkannya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan adaku tak dianggap olehnya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan puisiku terinspirasi darinya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan tuaku ditemani raganya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan seluruh aku memahami seluruh dirinya

bahkan aku bersedia menjadikan sholatku mengucap doa baginya

dan bahkan aku bersedia
menjadikna hatiku hancur berantakan untuk bahagianya!

Merah

Dia sudah selesai mencari si titik merah
gemuruh dalam riak tenggorokan memaksa keluar
sesak sudah memori di ingatannya
terputus putus roh tiada kasat mata melebur
terbawa jauh menyambut imaji dalam lamunan

kelinci kelinci kemudian memanggil seraya terlena buaian tulus

menghilang jauh
lepas lagi setitik merah itu

mencari lagi

terlepas lagi

karena terulang tiada berakhir
perlu lagi resapi dalam jiwa lagi

ia merenggut semua prasangka
lewat senyuman sang kesedihan

Love

Inside of love
will create by feel

outside of love
will change by life

and one box of my love
will around your heart

Badfeelingtoday's song

You dont even know what i feel
How difficult to understand and forgive you
I must forget you
But your voice always wishper
That you still need me
And its true love

Chorus:
You always runaway
Actually this is my bed feeling today
You couldnt reach me again
And it will be nice to run our life
And its gonna be okay
To forget our story love

I dont even know what you feel
You still beside me
And never open your eyes
My love is sincery you know
But you just hold me tight for the moment
And then you leave me

Berisik

Lalu lalangku berisik!

Seperti dibis kota mereka teria-teriak tak jelas

Aku mau cerita ke putri malu..karna dia tak berisik!

Sampai merintih aku ketakutan di dalam sini..
semua begitu berisik mengajak omong hatiku..

Tiap helai rambutku saja ikut berisik mengajak diskusi otakku

Aku tak sekedar tersesat dipersimpangan!

Mataharipun aku tak tau,
laut terlihat tinggi, dan gunung seakan rendah dirasaku


Ohh..aku mau kembali....

Kata Hati

menjadikannya cerita.....
titik titik titik
menjadikannya lirik.....
seru seru seru
menjadikannya syair....
lantun lantun lantun
menjadikannya ayat.......
esa esa esa